Kallen became overprotective of me and decided it was time kitty goes. So now he’s with my brother for now until my they sister takes him permanently in a few months.
Steps on how you find the desire to cook more:
1. Be in debt
2. Want to get out of debt
3. Buy affordable foods
We’ve been on a cheap diet of ham and cheese sandwiches lately and I really thought by week 4, I’d be totally over it. But so far, I’m okay! The smell and thought of sandwiches haven’t yet made me want to hurl. Perhaps all the mayo I keep asking Kallen to add makes it much more appetizing. Haha
And here’s a pic of my foster kitty who I may or may not be trying to convince Kallen we should keep for life. He has seriously stolen my heart. No surprises there though.
Ok, not really, but we are fostering this pretty little guy here. He’s my sister’s. But I’m secretly hoping Kallen falls madly in love with him and wants to keep him. He’s seriously the cuddliest and sweetest.
We’re slowly introducing him to Naimo and Machu. At this rate though, I’m expecting it may take months for Machu to warm up. I think Machu just wants his mama all to himself so any threat of that he won’t like. He’s a stubborn one. Any how, will keep you posted!
So Kallen and I took all our savings, sold our stocks, and doubled down on paying off my $280k student loan debt.
I got a library card, borrowed some books on getting debt free, and just for kicks, also books on business fundamentals.
2018 is going to be all about living with our bare essentials and to be honest, I’m really loving it already.
About a year ago, I wrote a post on being child-free by choice, without even the slightest clue that we would actually not be given a choice.
I saw my nephrologist for a routine annual check up in late August. My kidneys were not getting worse, but they never quite recover from the damage it went through a year and a half ago. I nonchalantly mentioned to him about our plans to possibly start a family at the end of this year. Without any warning, he quickly asked I seek advice from a high risk OB. Research right away showed pretty grim outcomes. Risk of pre-term birth. Risk of worsening kidneys. Despite that, we wanted to stay optimistic, at least until we hear it straight from the OB.
Well, we saw the OB yesterday. Sure enough, he pretty much confirmed it. Trying to find the silver lining in it all. There’s still a bit of hope if my kidneys somehow improve.
There’s also the other options of surrogacy or adoption. We’re not completely ruling it out. But it’s difficult to begin imaging having a family any other way than how you’ve always imagined it. There’s so many others out there who’s struggling with infertility. But there’s not many who are in the same exact situation that we know of. Because we haven’t even begin trying yet. We’re not facing the question of whether can we get pregnant, but more should we get pregnant. Is it irresponsible to want to try knowing that we might create an unhealthy baby? Would we regret not trying if there’s a chance baby and me would maybe be okay?
We’re sad for us.
And we’re sad for the world.
Hurricanes, earthquakes, flooding, fires, and mass shooting. Maybe someone is trying to tell us perhaps we really shouldn’t bring a new baby into this world… And then I wonder how people went through multiple world wars and still created families. A part of me have this hope that maybe this new breed of humans will somehow do better. Maybe those people thought the same.
This was shot in Iceland inspired by the vulnerability that Kallen and I felt after we first heard of the disappointing news. One way of dealing with a bit of sadness I guess, turning it into a bit of creativity. Hoping to submit it for publication, but unsure where would be appropriate. Help?
Anywho, such a somber post. I know. Hoping for better days, for all.
On our flight back home from Iceland, I watched a sweet movie called “Flipped” and now it’s one of my favorites.
Young innocent love with a strong and smart female lead, that also transports me back to much simpler times. I loved it. I have a mental list of movies I’d love to watch with my future kids someday and this is definitely one of them.
I turned 31 today and I wanted to create something for myself. So I drove to the SF flower mart, walked around all by my lonesome because apparently no one else shops for flowers at 12pm. I bought some flowers and put together this bouquet that was inspired by a talented florist I met at a workshop in Oregon.
Kallen and I found out some sad news a few weeks ago. Haven’t really talked about it with anyone yet because things are uncertain and we don’t have answers yet. I’ve been keeping myself busy with work so I don’t drive myself crazy with my thoughts.
We came back from Iceland not too long ago either and I think I’ve said it before that I think we’re not going to travel again for awhile. It was fun while we were there but the traveling there and back is exhausting.
My favorite was seeing the Icelandic horses. They’re so darn cute and reminded us of our pups.
We did some touristy things:
And we also did some not so touristy things including this styled shoot I put together in just one week:
Here’s some more BTS:
This was also one of my favorite moment from the trip. Thanks to Kallen for all his support, encouragement, and assistance on the shoot. He took a lot of bts photos and videos and now I want an assistant at all my shoots just for that. Lol
I go back to work tomorrow and all I want to do is find a way to be a stay at home wife. Haha. Some day, aka when I’m retired.